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NightmareI dreamt of you again.
It was so realistic,
That my heart ached upon waking up.
I knew it wasn't real,
But something inside of me wished,
Ever so slightly,
That this was a reality.
Why after all this time,
Do you still haunt my dreams,
I don't want to wake up finding myself,
In the pain you left me in.
I don't want to see these phantom dreams,
I don't want to face the past,
I want to move on and live in the now,
And find someone who I know is better than you.
I know I can find someone better than you,
Someone who willing want to fight,
And find me worth it in every way,
So why do my dreams cling onto you?
CorridorA long corridor stretches before me,
I see doors guarding me on either side,
But I do not enter them.
I walk past keeping my eyes ahead,
It's calling my name.
My heart skips a beat.
It's something I have been waiting for,
Something I believed only existed in my dreams.
Is it truly real?
Or am I still dreaming?
I head forward,
Listening to the sound of my name,
I am getting closer every day,
Soon it will find me,
The thing I am looking for,
But how soon is "soon" ?
Your VendettaIt's an acid,
Encroaching upon my strength,
It's a monster,
Eating at my soul,
It's the anger,
Boiling up inside of me.
If you have a vendetta against me,
Tell it to my face,
If you want to get rid of me,
Then do it and don't drag this on.
You who wrongly accuse me,
Without finding the facts,
You who cowards and hides,
Behind a silly little letter,
I find from you three days later.
I know you talk about me behind my back,
To all my peers,
Always finding something to complain about.
You have your favorites,
It's clear to see,
That I am not one of those,
So, you try to push me away.
Too bad for you I'm a fighter,
I am going to stand up for myself,
And keep what I need.
You can't get rid of me so easily.
I will show you all,
That you are under false pretenses.
DangerTonight was my dance,
I invited a friend,
My "Lady Brother"
She and I were to have a great time,
Because I couldn't get a date.
Then, without warning,
I received a text,
From someone I met,
Just a few short weeks ago.
When we first met,
I thought you were cute and fun,
I could see us easily becoming friends,
And I could see the good spirit in you,
But I also found you rather silly,
Dating a girl who lived hundreds of miles away,
Not that long distance is bad,
But by the fact that when she makes out with other guys when she's drunk,
And it has happened on several occasions....
How can you date someone like that?
Someone you cannot fully trust?
You say that it doesn't bother you,
But I think it does.
You asked to be my date,
And we danced the whole night,
And you were special.
You weren't afraid to dance,
To be silly and just let go,
That's something I have not found yet in a guy.
But I received mixed signals.
We made eye contact,
You touched my hand,
Heck, you held it once
SmileI see your picture,
Quite on accident,
And at first I'm scared;
I worry that my heart will break open,
And everything I've held in until now,
Will crash down and hurt me.
But the tidal wave of emotion doesn't come;
I find that I am light,
I am warm,
And that I can't help but smile.
Is that weird?
You broke my heart in the simplest of ways,
I believed you were the one,
I thought that you would save me from the world,
And love me forever,
But you couldn't.
So, you walked away
That knowledge seems to echo through my soul,
And there have been days,
Where I have wanted to curl into a ball,
And just forget the world.
The thought of your smile,
The thought of seeing you by accident,
The thought that you don't love me,
Would shred my heart to pieces.
Seeing you happy killed me.
I have been carrying boulders of pain,
Things we fought about,
Things that made me angry and more hurt,
So, why when your photo showed up, did I not cry?
I didn't feel pain,
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